I am attempting as always to create the me I want to be. Almost a year ago the world that I thought I had created was changed drastically and since then I have moved, become vegitarian and made some incredible friends. Sounds drastic right? Not so much so really, I have discovered that when you have to start over it’s not even one day at a time, it becomes one hour and one morning and one action, then you move to days, then to weeks and now it’s months… someday it will be years.
But I digress. In this new world of my creation I have dreams of running. I want to run so I do… on the eliptical at my gym. And due in large part to a wonderful friend I have been there dutifully every night this week. She rocks on her treadmill and I attempt to own the eliptical I call home for 30-40 minutes. Last night I owned it, I did really well and still feel energized today. And I do feel like I’m in this new place… not always perfect but it’s okay and almost good and somedays great. I run at night, not away from myself, not away from my body issues (which I have plenty of.) Instead I run to the life I want. I want to hike up Leconte (lets keep that one between us) and have the energy to hike to the sunset after. I run to effective stress relief and management. I run to the good things. I like that…. yep.


